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just wanna say something unimportant, is it okey? yah that's fine >>_<<

hahaha, halllooooooo my blog.
today i don't know what to say but i miss my friends, oh my gosh! but i don't think that when i meet them later at school they will feel the same like what i feel, but haha it;s possible. o ya, i miss him -_-' yah it's embarrasing!  um new day with a new feelling, i hope so but i think it won't be. aduhh for many times the point of what i'm talking just about him yah because in my mind is full of him. have he ever felt like what i feel now? have he ever put me in his mind to think about? hahahhahaha oh ya i forget, it was only a dream, girl :) but is it okey if i put that as a hope, that i believe later on it will be. i'm a teenager so, that's what i always think about, but not always sih, let's say sometimes. for me, he is my spirit, eventhough he have never realized it before, he is my motivator to be a better person in my life and in other's life. my friend told me that don't forget to always take a pray then put ur story there on ur pray, god knows eventhough i didn't tell him but at least i will feel more better.

um, i applied it before on my pray, i wish that my lord god will do something for me, i almost cry hahaha (lebayyy) but that's it, that's me! sometimes i browse on internet quotes about love that hopefully will give me more motivation to reach what i want, um yah let's say what i need. u know, sometimes i feel jealous to see him with other girl, hahaha yah i was jealous because i really want to be that girl but i can't. if like that happend i just keep smile and keep laughing pretending that i'm okey, it will be fine, i don't want anything change from my expression at that time. um i don't know how long have i felt like this, this is the second time i feel like what i have felt before with someone over the rainbow thre in my sky.

 i believe someday i'll be the sun in someone's sky, i don't know who is he, but i hope he is the best. i have one wish that still hasn't reached yet, haha just let god and i know it i'm shy to tell in here, how silly i m! yah now im listening to extreme's song with the tittle is "MORE THAN WORDS" haha that's what i feel now. truely, it feels like i wanna screaammm until i feel wow! i wnna screaammm saying that I LOVE YOU hahaha at least i have said it eventhought u didn'e listen it clearly, let me whisper it to this world then, just give me ur ear then i'll whisper that saying that words because u r my world. i wanna write ur name here but, i don't think that i brave to do it, so let me write ur name in my heart -__-'

friendshipp..

well, hello readerrsss, see you again in my blog haha now i'm going to talk about friendship. um, do u have friend? i know the answer haha. i also have, i have many friends. in ur mind what is friend? what for they create? yup, everyone has different answer for that but the conclusion for that will always be the same. for me, friend is my friend, how bad they r, but they r and will always b my friend, whenever they go, wherever they go, how far they r, still my friend. without them i don't know how's my life. u know, i just found my real friend. yup, they r the one who will always support me whatever happen to me, they r the who still keep on believe in me, when everyone r hate me, they r the one who always can make me laugh when i'm in good mood or even when im in a bad condition. just like the sky, when everytime i need them, they will always be thre give smile for me. um, yup friendship without problems is nt call friendship. i also have many problems to my friends, but for me how hard the problems r, it is god's way to make us more love our friend. just like these pictures :
 

just like them, keep smile, because friends brings happiness :)

well just that haha. um, guys don't ever forget me yah, i love u as much as i love them, my family. keep on supporting each other, thanks before for everything, for the lesson, and for open my eyes about my real world :)

FIGHTING!

huahh, today there were a big problem happen to all of us, guess what!oh god, what might happen if my parents know it? they will feel dissapointed to me. i don't want it happen. i just want to make them proud of me, whatever the way i don't ever think about it again. um, yeah i know that's my mistake, for sure i don't think it will b okay for this time. yah, eh ye i was veryy happy. haha, having an unspoken love is better than having a boyfriend, that's for me :) um, maybe this is only a simple tragedy but for me it was wow! let's say our name B, C and D. i'm acting as B. when the bell rang, B n C went to kop, eitss before that we wre looking for A to talk about some problems that need A's suggestions. um, we did't know whre were A, so i saw the one who was one room with me, i talked with him for minutes about yah our secret hehe. and then, D came to us, um C was there but D invited me to talk hehe D said that 'B, why don't u gether there, u did it right?' hahahahaha, i gave my best smile at that time and answer what did he said by saying 'heh, i didn't do it eh rangaa' hahaha cool. yah it's too simple to make me smile. u know, everyone may say i'm crazy, i'm going insane, but for many times, he is the only one that can always make me smile even when nothing happen, yah i'm in love. do i did something wrong? this is my heart so, no one will stop me right? haha thanks. i have tried but it's not work, um i just want to start it again, but with simple feelling and i will try to not to make it hard, so when there something happen i know what should i do :) but i still in love with u, my the only one god, ALLAH SWT. because, whrever i go, no matter how far, i believe u will always be there, keep looking me, thanks god to create me and create him. even oneday, i know that he is not create to stand on my side, but at least, i have take many positive from all of this, a good person is the one who can take positive from everything that happen, because that's what the reason god make problems :)) thanks, a good story right? get any positve from my story? hahaha that's my story, what about yours? :P see ya, keep smile guys..

be strong, keep smile :)

well, hey there. i'm back!
i have many things to tell, to share. i think i don't need to write the problem, just express my feelling in this blog yah. i don't know what should i say to them, "sorry" is not enough for them. i'm so sorry, for *** i know u felt dissapointed with me, i know since this, u will not trust me anymore. i'm so sorry. before, u said it is okey, but then? u r the one who spoke words that hurt me indirectly. can u, stand strong on my position now? can u imagine, u r standing on my position? i've never thought that was u. well, whatever, i'm so soorrryy, i didn't mean to do that, i was under control, yah because i was too busy. god! why am i so weak? just let my tears solve this problems? what should i do? WEAK! STUPID!