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just wanna say something unimportant, is it okey? yah that's fine >>_<<

hahaha, halllooooooo my blog.
today i don't know what to say but i miss my friends, oh my gosh! but i don't think that when i meet them later at school they will feel the same like what i feel, but haha it;s possible. o ya, i miss him -_-' yah it's embarrasing!  um new day with a new feelling, i hope so but i think it won't be. aduhh for many times the point of what i'm talking just about him yah because in my mind is full of him. have he ever felt like what i feel now? have he ever put me in his mind to think about? hahahhahaha oh ya i forget, it was only a dream, girl :) but is it okey if i put that as a hope, that i believe later on it will be. i'm a teenager so, that's what i always think about, but not always sih, let's say sometimes. for me, he is my spirit, eventhough he have never realized it before, he is my motivator to be a better person in my life and in other's life. my friend told me that don't forget to always take a pray then put ur story there on ur pray, god knows eventhough i didn't tell him but at least i will feel more better.

um, i applied it before on my pray, i wish that my lord god will do something for me, i almost cry hahaha (lebayyy) but that's it, that's me! sometimes i browse on internet quotes about love that hopefully will give me more motivation to reach what i want, um yah let's say what i need. u know, sometimes i feel jealous to see him with other girl, hahaha yah i was jealous because i really want to be that girl but i can't. if like that happend i just keep smile and keep laughing pretending that i'm okey, it will be fine, i don't want anything change from my expression at that time. um i don't know how long have i felt like this, this is the second time i feel like what i have felt before with someone over the rainbow thre in my sky.

 i believe someday i'll be the sun in someone's sky, i don't know who is he, but i hope he is the best. i have one wish that still hasn't reached yet, haha just let god and i know it i'm shy to tell in here, how silly i m! yah now im listening to extreme's song with the tittle is "MORE THAN WORDS" haha that's what i feel now. truely, it feels like i wanna screaammm until i feel wow! i wnna screaammm saying that I LOVE YOU hahaha at least i have said it eventhought u didn'e listen it clearly, let me whisper it to this world then, just give me ur ear then i'll whisper that saying that words because u r my world. i wanna write ur name here but, i don't think that i brave to do it, so let me write ur name in my heart -__-'