#8th of january 2012

Yah, like this, i’m fellin envy to see my friends hahha i also wanna feel like what they feel now, they are so lucky J sometimes i feel tired with all of this crazy things that drive me insane, but umm i can’t just give up in this situation, i need to show him (?) hhahaha noo no, of course not. Does he know all of this pain that burden me? Does he ever think this? Doesn’t he want to help me for this pain? Will he? Will he have it, will he have the same like what i feel? Oh gosh! Those are the questions that still need answer in my mind that makes my brain harder to think. Hn, well yah for you someone over the rainbow, if i can, i only want you to GO AWAY from my mind! 


Hey, um just forget what i’ve wrote before, mm i have a quote that says like this “a guy can make u think he loves u while he doesn’t, a girl can makes u think she doesn’t love you while she really does” from that quote, i think i know, all of those things that make me feel happy, that make smile on my face, yah only me feel it, while he doesn’t. Maybe for him it’s just usual things, but i was just too make it as a happy things that made me think that he also loves me but hhaha, it wasn’t!
Okey then, let’s pretend that everything is alright! I just want to share something, um yah on the first day of school it was 3rd of january 2012, in the canteen, when i bought some snacks and i wanted to pay it, i heard his voice, guess what?? He was beside me, at first he was like show me that i’m annoying because i was too talkative at that time, but it was just like a kidding, then he paid his snacks hahaha um his money is given to me because that should be my money as a (kembalian??) hahahah i still keep that money but i think i don’t need to keep it so i plan to use it someday J


#8th of january 2012